Hhaha, bloggin now for fun, needed to type out some of my tots =) Bored to the extreme at home now. Even gaming doesnt bring me the thrill that it once brought me. Have i changed? I dont know. I never knew i've changed in fact. It just came across my mind when my mom told me that i seem very different frm b4. Am i? Its whr i came to the point, that one would nv know when they change, its not i who wanted to point it out to u, its you whu doesnt rly know. But then agn, i mayb wrong somehow, no1 is ever perfect =P.

Sigh... its opening up once agn, wonder why? Whenever i think of those times, mayb it was i who was naive. Now, i had to make a choice that wasn't mine, and probably it takes time to heal, who knows when it will? I guess this isn't how my life is supposed to be. I would change my ways dhen, but who knows how. I've been told i have a shyt ass mindset, probably its time, to make a difference.

December, a month whr ur supposed to enjoy, a month whr ur supposed to relax, a month whr ur supposed to have fun. None of them rly applied to me this time. Probably this is the worse time of my year. Never felt so fucked up in my life b4.
Thinking back agn. It was only those short periods of time i rly felt happy, most of the time i was... sad? Nv knew whut to do, had to guess every little thing, makes me kind of... iritated.

Okae~Enough of all those emo stuff peeps =). Looking forward to my third bbq of the month haha! =) But then agn, it was you whu made me change to whu i am now and todae and... i think i had no regrets =). Oh! and also, tml thrs this lunch thingy haha =) Guess thats all for todae, i'll post bout the bbq ltr, stay tuned~ ciaoz ppl =).

Lalalalala~Tuesday, December 29, 2009